I am Brittany and I am trying to get into the best shape of my life. I want to build muscle and burn fat. Another goal is to someday compete in a competition! This is not a thinspo blog or pro-ana. I don't support them and don't care about being skinny.
I am a healthy, fitness oriented blog.
I am currently packing for Florida. I leave tomorrow morning at 10am and I am super excited/nervous/scared. Why? Food.
Over the last few weeks I have felt myself give up, and recommit to this competition on a daily, sometimes hourly basis. I still don’t know if I’m 100% ready. I don’t know how I’ll look on stage. I question whether or not I’m doing enough cardio, if I have enough muscle and how lean I can dial in. I question whether or not I really want this, if this is the right time…or if I’m just doing it as a huge distraction from my father’s death, which happened 9 months ago.
All I know is that I want to be a bodybuilder. I want this life style. I love it, I eat, sleep and breathe it. I don’t have friends who even remotely have the same life as me or even understand. It can get really hard. The bottom line is I want to be in amazing shape and I don’t know if a contest will give me something that is maintainable, or even teach me about it. Basically, I’d kill to look like powerprincess and fitzoey all year round.
So what is my game plan for Florida? Well, meals are included with where I will be, so I’m going to do my best to stick with what’s on my meal plan. I am currently writing down every workout I need to complete in my log and I’m packing my lululemons and nike’s. And I’ll be hitting up some kind of grocery store that is close by to cover my snacks.
think know, I can make it through this.
This week has been crazy exhausting. I worked 40 hours, crushed all but two of my workouts (legs today, spin tomorrow) and kept my nutrition on point. I am feeling 100% strong and confident.
Tonight I get my cheat meal. And I’m really feelin’ a cheeseburger…like..bad. I never want them, so I may just give in.
Also, its my four year anniversary to my wonderful boyfriend today. Exciting? Yes!
Now..legs with no preworkout because I ran out… or to buy an energy drink. Maybe money will fall from the sky for my preworkout.
to sit in an epsom salt bath and give my legs a little r&r. Work was terrible today with all of the hopping on and off of my forklift and going upstairs to pee a million times.
I smashed shoulders today and skipped the cardio because I really need my legs to not be sore, so that I can torture them again soon.
In 1.5 weeks I am on vacation and I am terrified because I want to stick to my diet 100%. It’s going to be so hard but I’m ready for it!
Alright, bath time. Then I’m going to roll around on my foam roller.
Digestive enzymes are helping but I need more probiotics. I have an appointment with my naturopathic doctor, who will take a look at my diet and my tracking of food to see what the problems could be. She’ll also want me to get allergy tested. After I see her, I have an appointment with my MD who will give me the green light..I hope.
I’m also really excited for my cheat meal this weekend!!!
I get my macbook back today!!! I am so happy!!
You know what this means? I can actually post better progress pictures, I can make new playlists that will make me want to crush my weight harder and zoom through my cardio. I’ve been listening to the same crap for around….2-3 months now. It’s all gotten a bit old.
I am loading my macbook up with the following:
any and all remixes that i can find on the kollection
of monsters and men
mumford and sons
The last three are not for the gym, because I’d probably sleep instead of lift. I also deleted all my music off my pc, which means I have to download a shit-storm of older music. It will be glorious!
And I killed shoulders today. Shoulders used to be my least favourite muscle group to work because they were so weak and I felt like I was always stuck with the weight I could use for them. But for a long time now, I love shoulders. It’s the best day of the week next to back!
I’m killing it. And my stomach is around 90% okay. By the end of the day it becomes a bit more upset. The last thing I am eliminating from my diet is: whey isolate. Good bye delicious whey isolate proteins and hello vegan shitty-tasting protein.
I used to only be able to use vegan protein and it’s back to that. Hopefully tomorrow I will have a 100% pain-free day!
Started my new meal plan today. I was extremely excited to get to eat more carbs in the form of oats and quinoa. Except, quinoa didn’t want to be eaten by my stomach. Oh well, now I have all oats in my diet which is fine by me.
I used to eat quinoa all the time and never had a problem until today. I got the headache from hell and bloated like I had eaten ten burgers. I’m not concerned because I just won’t touch it again.
And with my new found knowledge…I’m gunna keep pushing through.
This entire week my motivation cracked and I felt like giving up. I ate a lot of things that I shouldn’t have. I started to feel like if I already can’t eat so much, let’s just eat everything that we can.
I basically OD’d on ice cream and chocolate all week. As a result I feel like shit. I look like shit and it’s really disappointing. All of this came from my stomach being upset after everything, me almost dropping out of this comp and just being stupid about decisions. And now the cravings for these foods are through the roof.
So I did what any honest person should do and I told my Coach about everything. She posted my new meal plan and my new workouts and I am happy to say that they both are amazing. Each contain so much variety and exercises that I absolutely love! So I am excited to get back on track, to eliminate the bloat and kill this at 12 weeks out tomorrow. I will not fail.